My Simple Prayer

Dear Lord,

Its been a mintue since I came to you..talked to you heart to heart. I want you to know that even though I constantly mess up, that I am really trying. I know that I ask you why do certain things happen, and why do they happen to me.... and I am sure that you would like me to stop doing that. Once again I apologize. Listening to this song dear Lord as I pray to you in my mind, I pause in mid thought to tell you everything that's on my mind. I think about all the things that I dont have but I decided to try a different prayer to you tonight. Allow this prayer  to work for any person who reads this blog, to feel your hands wrap around them. I would like to thank you with a long list of things and I will start by thanking you for giving me life.

Thank you for the family that you allowed me to have, both blood relation and no blood relation. Only you know how much of an impact that they have on the person that I am. I could write a book to them and they still wouldn't know. Give them the infinate blessings that you have given me.

Thank you for allowing me to be built off of the past life, off the struggles, off of the hurt, tears and long nights. Thank you for bringing me thru the nights of suicide attempts and thoughts.  I tell  you nothing makes me more happier than looking back on what I was, where I came from. But its ok, because you have forbidden me to go back to that place. 

Lord I cry to you as I pray  because I know that you have blessed me to much, more than I am worthy. I  love my life of it....every waking minute I spend on a  new adventure. I am starting to understand the reason that you put me on this Earth. My job is to educate and provide a shoulder to cry on. Lord I ask you to send me more people that needs someone to talk to and send me more people who need to be educated about life and the possiblities it holds.

Wow, I feel so free now. I feel like a burden has just been lifted off of my soul because I gave you the glory in what you have given me. Thank you Jesus.

I pray that you bless everyone that comes into contact with me, no matter how they meet me. I want to spread my inner joy with everyone. Only you know the real reason why I have such a strong inner joy.

Thank you for allowing me to be a great friend and person to others...they know Im great and please touch their hearts.

My words feel so powerful right now Lord and I really feel like you will hear this  prayers because I am praying hard. I dont even want to ask you for anything , just  to thank you for everything that I have now.

Thank you for allowing this prayer to be so strong , that  I was able to allow  everyone in on how much you mean to me. I know I should go to church more, but trust me I am guilty when I dont go.

My heart is filled with all the love and hope that every future prayer will be answer because this is the first time I have prayed so hard by myself. Just me and you and Erykah in the background. lol..I figured you might have a sense of humor, seeing as though you made me.

Until Tomorrow
Amen